DropsofCrystals420's Xanga

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:46:28 GMT

Hey everyone! How's it goin'? It's been a very long time since I last updated or worte in my xanga. Well I'm doing my 2 weeks for the National Guard right now. I'm stuck 2 and a half hours away from home up at Camp Ripley. It's the fourth day being here and I already want to go home. I hate it here. And the chance I get to come online, I can't even get onto myspace because they have the site blocked. I'm at the internet cafe at the education building. I'm so tired. But at least being with the cooks, isn't as bad as it could be. We are on shifts so we don't cook the whole time we are here. I'm sick of cleaning up and cooking meals though. It really sucks and it wears me out. And standing there forever sucks ass. I really want to go home. I wish I could. I got until the 19th and then I'll be home. It seems so far away. I just have to get through this week and then next week hopefully won't be so bad. But I'm not looking forward to cleaning up everything so good on our last couple of days here. I miss Brandon. He's my kitty. He's so cute. I miss sleeping with him at night and holding him and petting him and hearing him meow. I hope he's alright and I hope nothing happens to him while I'm gone. Well I don't know what else to say. This place sucks and I want to go home and the military is fucking gay. I'm gonna end this now. So take care everyone. Have a good one and I'll ttyl. Buh Byes!

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 02:16:35 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! HAVE AN AMAZING NEW YEAR. HOPE THIS YEAR IS BETTER THAN LAST FOR ALL OF YOU!!!!!! LATERZ. <3

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 07:44:40 GMT

SMB CONCERT!!!!!!!

hey everyone. i had an awesome night tonight. i went to the halloween hootenany at the garage in burnsville. smb was headliners, retard-o-bot was before them, downtown brown was before retard-o-bot, and before them, mindrite played. it was so much fun, moshing and listening to kick ass bands. i really got into mindrite, who i never heard before. they were awesome. they are from around des moines, iowa area. the best was when smb played. i had so much fun dancing and moshing to their songs and they all dressed up as mummies, in toilet paper, but all the toilet paper fell off of them and john, the lead singer, was left wearing his underware and he's fat and was all sweaty, but it was really sexy. and omg, owen without a shirt on, i fuckin creamed my pants so bad. he's so fuckin hot. i want to be with him and fuck his brains out. i want to be his girlfriend, but i doubt he would even want to go out with me. but he's so funny and goofy and smart and sweet and nice. awwwwwwww. ok, so after the show, i went to the show with my kick ass cousin, we went to taco hell and got some quesaDILLAs and they were fuckin awesome and then later i felt the wrathe of taco hell and thought i was goin to shit my pants, but i didnt, thank god! then we went to walmart and picked up some hair dye so i could dye my cousin's hair. then after that was done, we went back to my house and i dyed her hair, then after that she went home and that leaves up to now, me typing this entry. so yeah. i think im goin to go watch some tv, go to the bathroom, change my tampon and yeah, chill out and sleep. well have a goodnight/day everyone. and remember it's DAY LIGHTS SAVINGS TIME. FALL BACK AN HOUR. laterz everyone and have a spooky halloween weekend. peace!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 04:04:09 GMT

hey everyone. I just got back from the Mindless Self Indulgence concert at the quest. It was so fun.Everything was alright until MSI started to play. The music started and i got seperated from my cousin, thrown into the mosh pit and i got thrown around, shoved, punched in the eye, elbowed in the chest, and people were pushing so hard that i couldnt break. it sucked but MSI kicked major ass. It was awesome concert. Afterwards i found my cousin and she got her pants and her stomach signed by some people in Suicidal City and got pics with the lead singer. he was pretty hot. then we got into the big crowd to get jimmy's autograph, which takes forever, but my cousin got her pants signed by jimmy and she got jimmy to autograph my phone, which is so awesome. I also got Lyn Z's autograph and Kitty's. I didnt have enough time to get steve's. Then after that we headed for Taco hell and got some quesadillas. nummies. then i took my cousin home and i went home. so it was a good night. well im tired. me go sleepy. night yall.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 01:31:18 GMT

Everything is alright folks!

well i hate when i think the worst of situations and they are not even like that. I found out that my boyfriend got kicked out of his house Saturday night and his father took away his phone, so that's y he couldnt call me back or y i havent heard from him since then. He's stayin with some cousins out in Lakeville and I dunno what he is goin to do. I just feel so bad now. His dad is really an ass. I found this out when he came online today. Things are okay between me and him. I hate always thinkin that he doesnt love me just cuz i dont get a chance to talk to him for a day or too. Iv just been so emotional latley and feeling so depressed and i dont know y. damn hormones. Blah! anyways, things are good. I hope things wont go bad for quite sometime or not at all. I shouldnt worry so much. and yeah, so yeah. Im bored, so I go now. bye.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 05:35:50 GMT

now this is some funny ass shit.

http://www.jokaroo.com/funnyvideos/davechappelleslowmotion.html

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 04:55:34 GMT

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/8353

Click on that and watch the video. its the best and funny too.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 01:31:34 GMT

Your Kissing Purity Score: 37% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell...

But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing Purity Test

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 03:11:24 GMT

Well i talked to my boyfriend today. I was like y dont we hardly talk anymore and he was like i was wondering the same thing. then there was a long pause and then we started talking about stuff, like what's goin on with his birthday party this weekend. his birthday is on sunday. though he doesnt want me to come to the party cuz of his parents. he doesnt want them to know that he is goin out with me cuz his parents dont like me. but that's a long story. so, i will get to spend sunday with him though. at least its on his birthday. i want to take him out to eat and a movie. maybe into the blue with paul walker. but anyways, when we talked he said he missed me and that he loves me and cant wait to see me on sunday. so things are good. Tomorrow i have stupid drill at 8 in the morning in stillwater. though i only have to go saturday cuz on the 8th of october, i have a mental health evaluation up at camp ripley cuz of me telling them i was depressed to get out of goin to Iraq. I just hope i dont end up in a white room with a straight jacket. that would be fucked up. but i know they will probably put me on anti depressants, but i dont mind that. Tonight, i took my sister and her friends to the maplewood mall to see click five. It took forever to get there and the traffic was just crazy. mapquest sucks and it doesnt help me for shit. it took us in the wrong direction, but the way we took got us out of a lot of sittin traffic. so then we got there and then my sister and her friends took off to get in front for click five. i took off and walked around. i got a grab bag and then went to hot topic and bout some killer boats for halloween. then i went to spencers and looked around. from there i went over and got a free henna tattoo. i got a dragon one which turned out nicely. the guy who gave me it was hot. then i walked around to other booths they had there that was apart from the mall thing they had goin on. I got free semi hair color, black, that comes out in 8 to 10 washes. then i got some free tampons, which is kind of weird, but i will probably need them, so that was kind of good. i signed up to win some stuff. then i walked around some more and went to sam goody to buy the new HIM cd, Dark Light. I didnt get a chance to have gotten it on tuesday, so i got it today. its an awesome cd. then i took my bags out to the car and came back and ate some burger king in the food court. then i went and met up with my sister and her friends and then they went and ate. after that we all went home. and that's about what happened today. im tired and bored. so yeah. laterz

Friday, September 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 05:18:58 GMT

I think my boyfriend doesnt love me anymore or wants to be with me anymore. We've hardly talked in the past week. I call him and talk to him on aim, but he hardly says anything back. And when i call him sometimes, he doesnt call me back. today, he didnt even respond to me on aim and when i called him a couple of times, he didnt call me back. And then when i was board and i downloaded msn messenger to see if he was on there, but he wasnt, i checked his profile and i see its recently updated, he didnt even mention me at all. His interests included making females feel good. Now what is that supposed to mean? Is he cheating on me or seeing someone else? Does he go off and be with other girls? I mean when i saw that, i just busted out in tears. i so wanted to call him at that point and ask him what was goin on. But whats the point when he doesnt even pick up his phone when i call. I feel so unloved. I just want to leave and get out of here and just walk. I feel like shit and unwanted and unloved. He was even acting like an ass the week before I thought I was goin to leave for deployment training. i was supposed to go to Iraq but they told me that I wasnt goin and I was so happy. i got out of it for him. So I wouldnt have to leave him again. I couldnt leave him. Like the friday, the 23rd of september, we were supposed to get a hotel room together, but he made other plans cuz he thought i was goin to get fucked up, meaning drunk with my friend amy that was coming down to see me before i left. But what i said is that amy wasnted to get drunk and i said i was goin to get drunk too. but i didnt even mean it like that. and he thought i wasnt even goin to hang out with him all day, but i was. my intent was to hang out with him all night, all of us would hang out together, but i guess he didnt want to do that. he blew me off completely and when i told him that i was goin to just hang out with amy at the homecoming game at richfield high school, he didnt even want to get a room with me anymore or even get to see me that night. I havent seen him since thursday, the 22nd of september. he hasnt even made an attempt to see me either. the last time i talked to him like a full conversation was 2 days ago. he then said he loved me and missed me, but it was me sayin it first. ive been the one who has been initiating the conversations. ive been the one calling, but he hasnt been giving back. I feel that we are just drifting so apart that we're goin to break up soon. i love him to death. he was goin to be the man i was goin to spend the rest of my life with. but he's been such an ass lately, that i dont think he cares about us anymore. i dont know what to do anymore. What should i do? I want to talk to him and see him, but theres no use. i cant even reach him. its like he's right there and he cant even see me or even respond to me. I cant touch him. I miss him so much. God, i need a cigarette. Im goin to go watch tv or something. i dont plan on sleeping tonight. Later.